mother

I hate seeing post where they say, I feel bad for those that don’t have a good relationship with their mothers/family/ sisters, like we feel sorry for ourselves, and that apology doesn’t sound sincere. We’re the ones that feel the pain and sometimes there’s not much that we can do about it, I just don’t ever want to do what my mother is doing to me. My mother is really manipulative, we don’t seem to get along what so ever and you don’t know how badly that hurts. I’ve cried many times because of her, that now I’m not quite sure if I want a relationship with  her. I understand what I’m about to say might sound terrible but I feel like I only have her in my life in the moment because I’m struggling financially. With getting garnished, saving for a car, for an apartment, I need help, just to keep a roof over mine and my sons head so I stay with her and my father. Once I get on my own to feet, I want to say goodbye. I’m not sure if It will be for ever but for a good while I am for sure. I still want every one else in my life, including my father but my mother, she’s to much. She gave me all my insecurity problems I’m going through, will call me a stupid ass if I forget to pick up milk, shes cruel and mean, brings me down and brings nothing but a negative energy. I’ve had enough and I don’t want my son around that. One day I remember telling her that If I ever stop talking to her completely that she better not even ask why and she needs to understand that I meant that.  There’s so much to say about my mother and throughout my blogs you will see her through my eyes.

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